I realized my bio- that I wrote myself- was utterly boring. It showed no personality and didn’t express who I was. It was this happy go lucky, in love girl, living by the beach worry free. Boring. It’s an image I created for myself based on false pretenses.
Ok, part of it is true I am living by the beach and in love. Yes, if you can believe it I am totally happy and secure in my relationship. That, I am proud of and it feels so good to be able to say that; I am 24 years old and have found the person that compliments all of my perfections and imperfections, making me a better person every day.
Here’s what else you need to know about me.
I am not worry free and I have dreams that are far fetched, or what feels unattainable. I want to travel the world and write, study fashion and act. I want to give through philanthropic activities and change the world, making it a better place because I really do believe in peace.
There are times where I feel like giving up because my work goes unnoticed or, lets face it, it’s just really fucking hard to stay motived and keep going sometimes.
I get frustrated.
I am not worry-free, in fact I don’t believe anybody is, but I am fearless at least 90% of the time because I am too damn stubborn to admit I am afraid.
I want to travel the world and write about every experience I encounter. I want to visit cultures and make new friends, see what people wear and study new religions.
I bartend, and well, It pays the bills but that is about all it does for me. I am in search of fulfillment and creating capital. Making myself successful through my eyes and, well, I am still working on it.
What is success to me? It doesn’t mean a big corporate job or fancy salary necessarily; it’s more like being fulfilled and happy with what I am doing.
What makes me happy?
Writing, acting, fashion, traveling, picture taking (in front of and behind the camera): Art.
I try to be happy most of the time, in fact I smile when I’m not to try and trick my brain out of depression.
I cry some more.
Which actually feels really good sometimes. I am absolutely emotional in every way, shape and form. But emotion is what makes me, me: empathetic, compassionate, caring, determined, risk taking, passionate, imaginative.
You really have to start somewhere, even if it is “just” an idea.
I try to do too much a lot of the time- stressing myself out. I have come to terms with that and it has made me realize that being selfish is O.K. You need to be selfish some of the time in order to pursue what you really want in life and create your happiness; happiness is a choice.
Reflecting on who I am as a person, my thoughts and feelings and all that emotional crap that a lot of us go through I realized that instead of saying I want, I need, or I can’t do it I need to work on let’s make this happen.
The New Year is always inspiring; it’s symbolic of a fresh start, a new chance, a clean slate. Even if you are not a resolution maker (which I am not) it can still motivate you to start taking action now and working on it throughout the year, then see how far you have gone with each goal you set.
Like I said me=goal maker NOT resolution maker.
You can use resolutions to obtain your goals.
1. The state or quality of being resolute; firm determination.
Find your firm determination.
For me it’s inspiration. Feeling inspired drives me to pursue everything I want to achieve in my lifetime. Plant firm and then go with it.
1. A course of action that one intends to follow.
Intending to do something is not the same as actually doing something. However using your intention to meet your goals and drive you is a way of motivation.
1. The purpose toward which an endeavor is directed; an objective
Finally, write these down. Pin them up on your wall and look at them everyday. It is simply your purpose and something for you to achieve and strive for.
My dad use to always whip out the Yoda on me.
“Do or do not. There is no try”
Yup, that happened, but how true is that? Just DO IT. Stop saying “I am trying” because trying is not the same as making things happen.
So, in order to practice what I preach and not just ramble to write, then look back and say “What the fuck?!” My objectives and course of action I am determined to follow this year:
GET A PASSPORT
Someone told me the other day that “only 5% of Americans have a passport.”
Then they followed up with “some Americans don’t have a desire to apply for a passport because they feel they have everything here in America and say ‘Why do I need to leave?’ “
Stupid x 2.
I plan on being part of the 5%.
Create travel jars. I saw this simple easy idea on Pinterest:
Get different size mason jars (which I have a weird obsession with) and label them Travel to _____ or Travel the world or whatever and save your dollar bills.
2014 objectives and course of action I am determined to follow:
Start a business
I went to Arizona State University for social media and marketing; this Is what I do best in regards to my degree.
As a form of second income and to pay for my acting classes this will be a HUGE, but fun, project.
My passion is writing, I plan to exercise this everyday, just like I go to the gym. I’m starting a journal to collect my thoughts and ideas and simply to practice.
It’s also good therapy and who doesn’t want/need a good therapist?!
Become a better chef.
A few years ago my only cooking skills included cereal and toast.
Believe it or not I love to cook now.
Cooking with my boyfriend has showed me I still have a long ways to go- in some areas, which is awesome because I love learning.
Even though my diet and lifestyle lean towards the super health freak, I’m still a foodie! I love food, I mean LOVE and becoming a better chef only seems appropriate to maintain my healthy lifestyle and, well, have fun while doing it.
Also! Exploring different cuisines can only help me on my quest to explore the world.
Take acting classes.
Already started! And looks like I started on the right foot, with my awesome feedback I got from my coach at my first class of the year.
Explore a new religion.
I “label” myself as spiritual. I believe there is a higher power and it’s not the human species. Exploring a new religion such as Buddhism, Hinduism, Taoism or whatever it may be is like exploring the ideas and values that have shaped and currently shape our world. I was raised Catholic, went to catholic schools and churches and then steered more toward Christianity as I entered high school and as I attended college and took a religion class, my interest in other ideas and values blossomed.
Explore new places.
Whether local or further beyond, this is my huge travel objective. I have an undying need to travel and explore new cultures, meet new people, try new food, take photographs and write down everything I see and experience. I am in love with places I have never seen and people I have never met; that is exciting.
I forget sometimes how important this is.
Two books a month- that is no problem.
Learn a new language.
I am of Portuguese, Spanish and German decent and don’t know a lick of any other language besides English. That is so sad to me especially being in country where we accept all cultures, religions and languages which become and make up our culture. My boyfriend (Chris) and I have decided we are going to try the rosetta stone thing. Spanish may be our first.
Help others philanthropically.
Draw, paint, color—keep up with art.
Pursue acting- making it a career.
Be a leader: strong, compassionate, loyal.
Be brave: don’t be afraid to embark on new adventures.
Say “I can” or “I will” more.
Get a tattoo.
Continue to learn.
Get more sleep.
Maintain a healthy body, mind and spirit.
There will be more as ideas come and go every day.
Make things happen, this day and everyday is your day!
If plan A doesn’t work, there are 25 more letters in the alphabet.
-The Naked Bohemian